Lyrics Chord: Asking Alexandria – Final Episode (Let’s Change Channel)

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Oh my God.
Oh my God.
If only he knew,
If only he knew,
If only he knew about the world without the bullshit and the lies,
We could’ve saved him.
They could’ve saved me.
But instead I’m here drowning in my own fucking mind,
And I’ll be damned if you’re the death of me.

Blood and ink stain the walls.
Silently with bloodied knuckles, I carry on
Hoping it’s not too wrong.
You said the nights were far too long.
‘Honey, it’s just the start of it.’

Oh my God.
If only he knew.
Oh my God.
If only he knew.
If only he knew!
If only he knew.

Just stand up and scream.
The tainted clock is counting down.
(Faster and fast! )
You gave in to me.
Would you say the nights are far too long now?
(Faster, faster and fast! )

Oh my God!
Oh my…

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Hi everyone! I know it’s been a very long time. But I was in the midst of a personal crisis. I fell into lots of despair. But Everything is okay now. Much better than okay actually. A long time ago, I let go of someone I love because I got scared. But thankfully, I was able to have him again. I don’t know what I’d do if he wasn’t with me. Life without him was an eternal hell that was unbearable. I am so happy and so incredibly lucky that I get a second chance. It is only once in a lifetime you meet that one person that you absolutely can’t and won’t live without. I’m never running again, I swear it. I’m facing everything head on and I regret all of the things that I didn’t tell him. All that time away shouldn’t have been, but it was. And I’m not letting him go. Ever. I am so blessed and thanking fate for letting me have this happiness as hard as it is for me to think that I deserve it. ❤

I hope you all are doing well and enjoying the last few weeks until summer!!!

~Faith ❤

Never Gonna Be Alone

Hard to Handle

Yesterday was nice. I didn’t feel a god damn thing. For once, I was numb. Now, I feel everything. I have no headphones to drown out the noise… I forgot to bring them with me. Why do I feel so terrible about this? Was I wrong? Did I make a mistake somewhere? Perhaps it’s the little visit I took down memory lane. All the things I miss, the things I want, and the things I need. 

I didn’t mean for this to happen, but it seems like I’m in these situations all the time. I jump headfirst into something I think I have enough knowledge for and then, BOOM. The realization hits that I have no knowledge at all, I was very wrong and people are accidentally hurt in the process. 

I’m currently trying to avoid the situation because I really don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want to even see it. It’s like having a pink elephant in the room; I know it’s there, but I refuse to look at it. I wanted to think that maybe I could be less intense and less in need of intensity. I wanted to think that perhaps I could compromise on some of the things I believe. In reality, I could not do any of that. I can’t change the fact that I have a lot of demons that I face and I can’t hide them, no matter how hard I try. 

I try to imagine what will happen in about an hour or two. Should I take a different hallway to escape the whole thing entirely or should I do what I normally do and not run away like a scared little girl? I don’t want to run or hide, but I start to panic, thinking of the things he might say and what I might say. I never meant to hurt him, if he is hurt anyway. He truly is a decent person, he just wasn’t what I was looking for. 

He wouldn’t understand the things I’ve been through, the places I’ve come from. And I get that because he hasn’t been through any of that. Besides, he’s leaving in a couple months and I am unable to maintain a relationship from afar. He needs someone innocent and fragile, unlike myself. I don’t like the fact that I have caused a chaotic confusion for him and everyone else. 

Maybe, my friend is right: I do over-think everything. But I cannot live a lie and suppress the parts of me that they don’t want to see. I thought for once, I had caught a break. And now I see that I haven’t. If anything I have let myself get caught in a net. 

All in all, I’m attending prom by myself. Perhaps, it’s better that way.

Where My Demons Hide

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFQYaoiIFh8

Hey guys. I hope everyone is doing well. I have come to many conclusions in my many situations. I can’t be this person I’ve been pretending to be. It’s so hard, trying to be perfect, hiding every part of me that they won’t like. I need people that can handle every part of me, not just the fluffy BS. I’ve been a pretty good actress lately. I tried to make them like me, losing myself in the lie. I almost started to believe it. But this is me————-> Flaws, scars and all.

HELP!

If anybody is even reading this, I need your help. Have you ever wanted to say I love you to someone that you are dating, but you’ve only known each other well for a couple months? Has the urge to say that ever been so overpowering that it almost slips out of your mouth every time you see that person? If you guys could please tell me what to do about this, I would be grateful. The advice that I was given, well, let’s just say I need more experienced people to help me here. I had this problem at the beginning and it has now gotten a lot harder to seal my mouth. It’s like a natural thing. My brain just automatically thinks that when I see him. And I don’t know why. I don’t know how to not feel so weird about feeling like this. I don’t even know if this is normal. HELP!! SOS!!